It was one year ago...
The Brazilian news vehicles started to report the first case o COVID-19 in a 61-year-old man that came from Italy, specifically from the Lombardia region, where the coronavirus was causing enormous damage by taking lots of lives at that moment. The rest of the world was frightened to watch all that chaos. Meanwhile, here in Brazil, President Bolsonaro was trying to diminish all that was happening.
Weeks have passed since the first case and the number of contaminated people was growing. The authorities were running in circles trying to establish protocols to avoid the fast growth of cases, yet, Bolsonaro's kept with his negationist policy, trying to diminish the pandemic, calling it "little flu" in disrespect of the first dead people that literally have died drowned by the liquid produced due to the inflammation in their own lungs. Months later the number of cases of COVID-19 has grown exponentially, and Brazil was running to be one of the countries that had the major number of sick and dead people.
Seeing all that happening, caused me a lot of fear, confusion and increased my anxiety. The fear to lose my parents, brothers, grandparents, wife, or children only complicated things. I was sinking in anguish! Finally, a "half-lockdown" was implanted in a trial to smooth the growing curve of cases.
In the middle of all that problems, working on pgModeler was a way I found to forget about what was happening to the world around me. And that was what caused more damage to my health...
Some background facts...
Since I was a kid, I've faced lots of health problems, specifically those related to growth. Anxiety was also present in my pre-adolescence as well as today having 37 years old. As an introverted person who can't put out the anguish, rage, and any other bad feeling, I started to transfer everything to my body which, of course, had its consequences: in 15 years, even being an active person, I acquired 3 intervertebral disc protrusions in my cervical spine, 2 other disc protrusions in my lumbar spine, suffered a surgery on my right shoulder due to a tendon rupture and more recently, bilateral carpal tunnel syndrome. All that caused only by the stress suffered all those years.
... my body was warning me that I had to slow down a little, take more breaks, have more fun, forget about the work in the resting days. I just ignored it because I wanted to "hide".
Inevitably, the worse has happened: since September 2020, I was struggling with several painful episodes in my neck, left shoulder, and left arm. After visiting some doctors, using strong medicines, and lots of physiotherapy sessions the pain had gone for some weeks just to return stronger. In the last week, after performing another round of medical exams I discovered that one of the intervertebral disc protrusions in my cervical spine got worse in such a way that it was pinching my spinal cord. Never felt such horrible pain in my whole life! The doctor was emphatic: "You must make the surgery to replace that problematic disc, or things tend to get even worse!". That devastated me. It was time to really slow down... and so I did.
Will pgModeler be affected?
Unfortunately, yes! I really sorry but it's for good! Since I'm still working from home, pgModeler occupies a lot of my time. This way, I decided to deaccelerate, to really take care of my health so I can bring you even more news about this project that I love so much. So, I have the obligation to speak to every single person who follows this project for years that I'll not stop working on pgModeler, but I'll delay future releases.
I don't know when I'll make that surgery because the health system here in Brazil is completely collapsed without a prediction of when it'll get to normal. Due to the risk of contamination during the surgical procedure, my doctor says it's safer to wait. While we wait for the slow vaccination process to happen, I'll stay home, working at a slower pace, taking care of myself and my family. But trying to keep you informed as I always do in the project's social networks. Anyway, for the next weeks, I'll be updating the docs of 0.9.3 and trying to release some snapshot builds of 0.9.4-alpha until I get better.
I ask you for a little patience... everything will be better anytime soon, I hope!
Stay safe!
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